love and insanity

i was in love with a girl once about 7 months ago she was the most beautafull girl i had ever seen but then agine the ones you love allways are any ways i was friends with her for years iallways felt that way i was just waiting for the time when we could finally be together and then last year on 4 20 she came over and stayed the night she had allways known how i felt about her and that night she kissed me and i swear it was the most shocking thing i had ever experianced my hart rate jumped up to 160 i felt like i had been electracuted any ways our realation ship went on for like a week and then she dissapered no phone calls no nothing i didnt talk to her for like 4 months and befor that i had talkied to her every night for 2 1/2 years for at least an hour or to a night and when i didnt here from here agine until she called me 4 months latter and pretended like nothing had ever happend between us and you dont even know how taterd and torn i was over this girl i was so ready to just slit my ****ing wrist but i didnt because i hoped one day we would be together she allways knew i loved here put she just passed me up for crack headz who were so fxxking poor they picked cigarettes of the street wich compleatelly killed my confadince but the one thing she did to do to help me was give me that kiss cause i never would have been confadent with out it to make a move on some one else and now here i sit today with new out look on life i finnally manedged to fall out of love with here i took here mask off and revealed here for the monster she really is and now i couldent give a fxck i dont think most people know how good it feels to not give a fxck bye the way the way i fell out of love was by getting drunk and fxxking her best friend we are in a loving relationship to this day a word to all love sux dont particapate. sorry this must have been hard to read and pointless as well