Sad story

[GT40FIED]

Originally posted by Black Del Sol
Hey GT I won't say anything because I agree with you.
The only thing is suicide for some people isn't just cause they want to. You have to remember that people that committ suicide usually aren't mentall stable. Their brain is usually chemically inballanced, they are usually missing a lot of pieces up in the old noodle that most 'normal' people have. I think suicide is a cheap way out, but I have been through it and still deal with it everyday. No not your typical oh I'm depressed cause I'm a teenage bullshit. I'm 24 years old and I deal with depression, I'm worse then a rollercoaster, and have been through therapy and everything. I choose not to take drugs because I honestly feel as though, it fucks you up more. So coming from me, I can sort of see where he is coming from.

Think about that situation for a second, think about what would go through your mind after getting news like that.

You're being pricked and prodded at for a hellish 7 or 8 months. You're thinking all of this is going to be worth it in the end and I'll hopefully be able to raise your son while being halfway normal, everythings slowly getting better. Then all of a sudden, the suffering you went through means nothing because as it turns out, too many transfusions, youre gonna die.

Now don't get me wrong, I'm not trying to justify his suicide at all. I'm just saying that if it was me, or most of us, we might have done the same thing.

I hear you on the mental instability part Derik...not quite sure about the rest.

That post somehow reminded me of my father. My dad suffered through a year of chemo, always with a smile on his face. His only complaint was "I dunno...I feel a little tired today". When he was diagnosed I think he knew what the ultimate outcome would be and while his death was somewhat inevitable, I can't help but feel lucky for having had a father who had the dignity and courage to not choose his own way out. If I was in this kid's shoes, I'd never be able to forgive him. All of that said...I can honestly say I wouldn't have done the same thing in the same situation. Regardless of what life throws at me, I'm fighting 'til the end and going down swinging.

Side note: It's nice to hear your 24...being 22 (almost 23), I was starting to feel like an old man around here.