Miss Lyna is Baaaaaaaaack!

[MissJDM]

Maannnnnnnnnnn, it's been awhile!

So, I think I have too much to talk about so lets randomly post as they come to mind...For those that know how I ramble (Steven), then you can probably hear my voice in this thread. Otherwise, please don't lose patience with the fact that I am going to r a m b l e.

I thought I was gonna bitch when I came back and saw that my PINK layout was missing. Then..oh man, I went to post and saw that I got to change my FONT and I get better colors to choose from!?!? Mods that made the change, I luv ya. That leads me to my next few questions, who was it? When did this happen? Why is no on else using the colors? Can I still get my pink? How about adding Bradley ITC for me? Lots of loves in advance if this can happen.

Things have been hectic since the break-up. Good hectic though. I realized what a dumbass he was. I'm better off without him, without someone bringing me down because I had something going on in my life. Damn pinoys. (This excludes you, Arnel.) Speaking of which, Arnel and Steven, I have gotten your messages..and for that, I freakin think you guys rock. Seriously, ROCK. We have a cuddle smiley, and all sort of weird positioned ones, but why don't we have a HUG one? Hmm? Big hint there for the mods.

I got my first apartment. Yes, allll byyy myyyseelllffff. No Mommy and Daddy this time to help me out. Got it with a good friend..details at a later date.

Car/Raff News:
I was gonna surprise you guys with the head I've been having built by Dave at DH-Racing. After $2500 on the head, I have decided to part the car. Yeah..it's not exactly something I want to do but I think it's for the best. Raff and I built it together and I don't want to hang on to anything that reminds me of the past. How do I take the JDM front off of the car? Anyone wanna buy that? That's my first thing I need to get rid of because I don't have a place to store it. Yeah..sigh. I really wanted to see that car finalized. Raff's being a bitch and won't give me all of the parts that I stored at his house. IE: 5 point sparco harnesses, short block, head. He also owes me like $3000.00 and refuses to give it back. Does anyone wanna visit me in Oregon? Sick of this bullshit. In addition to which, we have that joint dog, Onyx. I didn't put up a fight for the dog because I didn't want to cause more drama. He's been calling me and when he realizes that I won't answer, he texts me to see how I'm doing. Makes me feel weird; I don't need to talk to him, it's almost a waste of my time. I did ask to see the dog, and he refuses to let me unless I A) Go to his house and hang out with the dog there while he's home or B) he'll take the dog to my house but he has to be able to stay and "hang out." More bullshit.
Back to my car...I feel like I let so many people down by not finishing it. Really, especially Arnel!
You guys are probably wondering what I'm driving for now, huh?
At the beginning of January, I bought a 1998 BMW. Coupe. Black on Black leather. 5 Speed. 6 Disc. $7500 Cash. I'll post pictures soon. I'm over it though..I want a sedan again.

Steven: I owe you an apology for not keeping in touch. You've seriously been the ooberest! Remember how my mom's oldest brother passed away this past summer and I had to go to Vietnam? Yeah. Her only other brother, passed away almost two weeks ago. Life's been hectic and I admit, I didn't want to have to explain myself or my feelings to anyone. You're still the shit, yo!

Ben: I received your HS gift. Sure, it was for Christmas and I didn't get it until February..but I got it. I had you send it to Raff's house and he never gave it to me. Thanks, I thought it was adorable!! What do you want for your uh, Christmas present?

Work's been shitty. I haven't been able to focus and I'm not nearly doing as well as I usually do. In fact, I'm gonna make about half of what I usually take home. I'm not looking forward to my April commission check. Who wants to start a Lyna-Fund?

I think this is gonna be it for now. I'd feel horrible if I continued this post. Knowing most of you, I highly doubt anyone will read this entire thing. It's okay though, it's for those that noticed I was gone.

I'm back. I hope to stay around this time. You guys usually help me keep my head up but, I really needed my alone time the past couple of months to figure out who I am and what I want in life. Trying to think positive about myself, and it's improving. When I sit down and think, I sometimes still feel that there's something wrong with me as a whole. I did my best in that relationship and still got played for a fool.

In response to my post awhile back: not all guys are dickheads.


I missed you guys.