about ready to give up on it all (yeah, again)

[pdiggitydogg]

So yeah, only a few months of getting my shit painted a deer runs out in front of me @ 40mph, around 11:30pm. Since then Ive been trying my best to fix it w/ what little patience, energy, and care that I have left in me...
My hoods bend above the headlight, fender is stragely warped in several directions (no dents specifically) and my left headlight (which were hard as fuck to find, by the way) is destroyed, blown to bits, and I get spidered stress fractures in several spots on my bumper.
The deer? Oh of course it was fucking fine. Got right up, stood there for 1/2 second and JUMPED away like it stopped to smell a flower. No blood, no staggering, no nothin...totally fine.
(Deer are very greasy animals...my car is lubed to the max on the outside).

Together w/ all the other bad shit I got goin on I am seriously about ready to sell the car, drop out of school, become a eunuch, and just about totally give up on any sort of hope for happiness in my life again.

I need a new hood and a new set of headlights. Thats the bare minimum. Guess I'll have to go back into the motor fund AGAIN...wait didnt I just do that? Oh yeah....I DID. $700 out for a cf hood and good oem lights (no Im not going to just accept crap).

Oh, and there was a car in the other lane at the exact same moment when I hit the damn forest cow. If they werent there I probably couldve swerved into the other lane and missed it...a little shaken, but not poorer and not pissed. Do you think THIS person stopped? FUCK NO.
Thats 2 BS accidents that Ive had in under 8months where someone was there, but didnt stop. To hell w/ humanity.

Im not even going to call the insurance company. They'll just make it my fault (like thats even remotely my fault) and raise my rates. Oh, they'll also give me some bs quote too and not let me do the work. I hate them. The only reason why I use them is in the case of a "totalled" wreck. They write the check and then drop my ass.

Im waiting for my dad to say something like "praise the lord thats all that happened" No. Id be "praising the lord" (if I didnt already despise "god" for giving me all this shit every damn day of my existence on this shit ball of a planet) if I didnt hit the thing at all! "Thanks god for letting me hit this beast, but survive w/ only $1000 in damages and an even more beaten psyche".

Oh, and those that remember my mom...yeah she's got colon cancer too now. Thanks again "god"

*BIG ASS RANT*