[DsBlu01CivEX]

yah you could say we are at "friends" level...but it seems like I'm the one keeping at friends level and not sayin stupid shit like above. he's actin like he regrets something....I still say his loss. I know in my head and heart that I won't get back together with him...I don't need my heartbroken like that again. It's hard for me to cut off all communication though cuz we have a lot of mutal friends now....and we go to the same club. Its not like I'm callin him or he's callin me though. When we talk it's either at the club on fridays or on aol. My thing is though if he is regrettin what he did...thats gonna make me turn it on a little bit more to drive him insanely(?) jealous. It's really the only way I can torture him. Ugh it's soooo much easier for me to be a cold hearted b*tch to people I don't know. I need to work on this some more.