[4jacks]

Well I'm sorry, that I don't check this forum to often, and couldn't wish you well earlier. I think you made some great judgements. This is just a really scary reminder that life is on God's time and not ours. So we need to live every day of it ready to be our last. I'm glad to hear that you forgave him, and we can only hope that God has done the same, You should try to remember some of the better thoughts about him, I know often bad memories will always rise above positive ones, but if you could spend a moment remembering the things you liked about him, it may help you put that memory to rest.

I wish you the best, and will say a prayer!