thanks guys... i talked for about an hour with his girlfriend today. she said that she wanted me to go. but talking to her made me feel even weirder. ay
i know that if i don't go i'll regret it, so i think i'll go. but talking to his 'new' girlfriend about how they were living together an all these things makes me feel so strange. she was very naive about things that went on. she really doesn't have a clue about the things that really went on with us. but of course, i can't talk bad about him to her, i don't want to mess up his memory. i'll just let her believe what she does. but knowing that the people i considered family are her family now makes me feel so strange.