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Hmmm...this is a welcome break of lucidity and sobriety for me...usually I'm posting when I'm drunk or at least moderately intoxicated. But anyhow...time to wax idiotic:

Ok...Where to start. Haven't had a gf in about 3 years and every chance she gets my ex rubs it in my face that she's with the guy she's seeing and how happy they are (but she gained about 40lbs after we broke up so I do get some smug satisfaction, what little there may be). It's been so long since I had sex I'm starting to wonder if they've changed it. I'm seriously starting to question my own sanity (no joke...I'm freakin out). It's quite possible I'm an alcoholic and I honestly don't care. I'd love to ask out this girl at work but...well...she's hot and I'm...well...me so there goes that option. I hate white people which is a strange sort of duality since I, myself, am white. I hate anyone who believes that our country's political system is solely bicameral. I'm broker (if such a word exists) than shit and don't have a job while I'm in college and basically have to live off of my savings which, while I'm in no danger of depleting them, is just really annoying. I feel worthless if I'm not doing something...anything. Doesn't even have to be work. But I only know my roommate down in Pitt cuz I don't like talking to people I don't know (a bit of a catch 22 there). I hate how most of the girls I've ever dated were looking for someone to take care of, not date. I hate how people can't accept that, yes, I do look a little different than they do, but I can do anything they can do better. And most importantly I hate you. Yes...you. Don't act like you don't know who I'm talking to. Lol. Ok...that last one was a joke but the rest of it's serious. Scout's honor.