[ohiochica]

just need to vent , no purpose in this post and i will probably delete it shortly afterr writing it, but i gotta vent or i am going to burst.

first off i miss my mom soooooo bad, this holiday season absolutely sucks without her. people you have no idea how lucky you are to have your mom still alive. i would do anything to have my mom with me.

secondly i need a fulltime job! not working just freaking sucks! i have a small part time job but it just pays my car payment and insurance. i need to move outt athis hell hole town but to do that i need money and decent credit......geee wouldnt a job help with all that.

thirdly my stepdad whom i live with is being an ass!!!!!! keeps hinting thta i need to move out and he tells me it also. hello, dont ya think i want out of this ****ing house! cant ya tell i am rarely here becasue i ****ing hate it here! but due to no job i am kinda stuck. i dont think he realizes what he is doing to me, but once i do move out there is no looking back. he can forget he had a daughter.

all i want is for things to get a bit better......please just let my life get a bit easier.

sorry for being such a downer, i am not normally like this, i just need a break and i will be fine again. i keep thinking of teh phrase....only the strong survive, thank god i am strong.