See the thing is weird....she confides some things in me that very few people know, yet at the same time she just totally ignores the fact that I ask her things like "so whatcha do last night?" because she "doesn't jive with questions like that." I'm sure she has nothing to hide, but she sure comes across as though she's hiding a huge part of her life from me. I've never had a friend who would just shut me out like that, especially when I've opened up so much in return. Usually
I'm the one who is very closed. She thinks I don't like her as much as she likes me, yet she shuts me out of huge portions her life. How could I possibly like her as much as she likes me, I know a fraction about her as she knows about me. It's just ridiculous.
She thinks I'm very judgemental. And I really don't know, I may be. She claims not to be, but I really think she's very judgemental. She's judged me so many times, and been wrong (see above post). Simple things like she won't let me in her car. Why, I don't know. Been in it once, and never since. She's too embarrassed or something because her car is a little messy, or something, I don't really know why....but she makes the claim that she's embarrassed about it or thinks I'll judge her as a result of it. Puleeeeeeez, gimme a freakin break. Sometimes I think she's got one of the lowest possible opinions of me......other times I think she has a very high opinion of me.
It just saddens me that we can have so many good times yet I feel so much pain as a result of her. Unfortunately I know I've caused her much pain as well, and that saddens me more. I'm far from perfect, I know, but sometimes I think she thinks she's perfect.
Ugh.....I need to just stop b*tching about this.
Thanks for the help, tough.
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