After going to the doctor ovvver and ovvvver - it's been suggested that I terminate for health reasons. I dunno if I will, but probably so. They said that the baby probably won't survive and the more I let it grow, the more pain it will be in because of all these reasons and I risks of me dying just get higher the further along I go with the pregnancy. Ugh. It's just really complex, but yeah. I haven't told any of my friends, my ex, or my parents and I don't think I ever will.
But thanks to everyone for being helpful & supportive.