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Well the other day we almost stopped doing stuff...and it wasn't that we wanted to but she just felt so much pressure and didn't think she could go on lying and sneaking around...and her mom was talkin about marriage and sayin how the worst thing she could do was be with an american....we talked for hours and I just send her the message I wanted to..That in no way would I ever intend to come in between her family or religion and in the end it should be a top priority. Then we talked and realized we can't go from what we have to nothing no seeing each other or talking but cause we are perfect. I basically said we can't live for the f uture but have to realize we're here now together and whatever happens happens. It was almost like I would have felt like I failed if I didn't talk to her and tell her everything again...I can't just give in. The longer we are together and live in the present the more she'll understand how much I love her and I only want the best. If at anytime she feels she has to stop because she feels guilty...I'd have to respect that...she was tryin to tell me to move on, but I couldn't comprehend us not doing stuff when everything is going so perfect...I couldn't move on I'd be in love with her for a very long time...hndagrl I thank you for all the comliments, but it really comes down to who I am and I don't just give up on something like this that means so much to me. I truly want the best for her in life....and I think the more she knows that I do love her and care for her....the more i don't know. I don't say everything I do to her like in an attempt to brainwash her into being with me...I respect her and the person she is and she wouldn't be that person if it wasn't for her family and religion...Thinks change..I mean if she ever found her family to fail or her religion...I'll be here for her no matter what...as will my parents...my dad loves her...my mom doesn't really know her cause now I'm living with my dad....i just don't wnat her to live unhappy to make her parents happy....isn't worth it at the end of our lives to go unfulfilled. The times she is happiest most is when she's with me...and i can't just let her stop doing stuff cause she thinks it'll make homelife easier....cause I know she'd be thinking about us...and it'd be hard if we stopped and then they failed her and came back...cause I'd have the thought of what if it happens again...all is well now I'll see her tonight and it'll be the best feeling I'll have this week....tks for everything
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