thought your life sucked
 

actually they say that the death of his best friend is what provoked him to commit suicide
this is the supposed suicide note
"I am depressed ... without phone ... money for rent ... money for child support ... money for debts ... money!!! ... I am haunted by the vivid memories of killings & corpses & anger & pain ... of starving or wounded children, of trigger-happy madmen, often police, of killer executioners...I have gone to join Ken if I am that lucky."

Shitt.....that's fucking sad.